I don't want to jump the gun here, but I think I may have finally found a new fuck buddy. I am sure some of my readers may find it hard to believe that I've been living in the city for so long and am only just saying this, but it is true. To be fair, I've had a few periods in the past year where things just got really bad, and I went months last fall without having sex. Also in my defense, even when I have time off from school and work, I don't spend it all wagging my dick at passing boys and catching every nibble I get. But man, I do wish I could!
Anyway, I've finally managed to snag a guy that, for now, fits that perfect mold of a fuck buddy. He is horny, he's attractive, he likes me, he isn't looking for attachments, and he is someone that I genuinely get along with outside of the bedroom. It is honestly really hard to come by someone who fits all of those criteria. I know it may seem like I'm over-catagorizing when I say this, but anyone who doesn't meet those demands (and maybe a few others) won't be considered a fuck buddy by me. I would think of them more as a repeat fuck, or maybe even a reliable fuck. But for the most part those are not people who I would consider a "buddy." Kyle is definitely a buddy.
I've written about Kyle a couple of times before. Once in a post titled "Low Energy" and once in my recent update on my life. Those aren't the only times we've met up. And it feels like things get better each time we do meet up. We get to know each other's body a bit more and things just happen more. And in a lot of ways, it is refreshing to have that consistency for a change. We both know each other's schedule, and we both feel free to ask for sex whenever we have some time open. He's willing to pick me up and take me back to his place. We have fun fucking and then hanging out. And then maybe fucking some more.
The realization that I have this new fuck buddy came to me around the same time that I started corresponding hard with the last guy I considered a fuck buddy, and maybe something more. Chris, who was the subject of many of my earlier blog posts, and I have been talking to each other again pretty often recently. He recently graduated from college and I think he is needing a little bit of stress relief. His messages may start out like a normal conversation, but usually there is a point where he drops a, "I wish you were still in Ohio," on me. Or worse: "I wish you hadn't left." And it kind of breaks my heart.
"I wish that too," I reply each time. I have to say that, it is the only honest thing I can say.
It is true that a lot of things would probably have been easier for me if I had stayed in Ohio. Life might even have been better for me, or at least more manageable, in a lot of different ways. I know some of the crap I've dealt with this past year would not have been an issue if I hadn't moved, though some of it would still have happened. But even knowing that, what can I say? And what can I do?
Chris likes to tell me I should just move back to Ohio when my lease is up--usually in jest. I hit him back by saying that he could just as easily move out to Boston. But we both know it wouldn't actually be that easy to uproot ourselves right now. And while he tells me that he misses my furry chest, and I tell him that I miss cuddling and watching TV, we both know that any time in the future where we can share that again will have to wait. If it ever happens.
Meanwhile I'm excited about the fact that I can cuddle with Kyle, if I need to. And I keep telling Chris to keep a stiff upper lip, that he'll find someone else soon as well. Meanwhile, he has been living a bit vicariously through stories of my conquests and any pictures that I send him. In a way I'm like free porn for him. He told me just yesterday that he really wants to watch me fuck another guy, just to watch. I never talked to him about my exhibitionist streak, but I think he knows I like to put on a show, and that it would be hot for me to be watched.
But for now, Chris and I are going in different directions, and I'm sure he will find a Kyle of his own soon. Chris is a good looking guy, there's sure to be men out there ready to jump on him. And since he had me as a sexual mentor about a year ago, I'm confident he'll know what to do when they do.